Loneliness For Love
Music is truly universal. It’s a form of expression that can transcend political party affiliation, sexual orientation, ethnicity, and socioeconomic status. That’s why I chose to name all of my blog posts after titles of songs that inspire them. Another thing that transcends those differences: the longing to love and be loved. It makes us all human. And some of us have a harder time finding it than others and we mistake, wait for it…loneliness for love.
Alexa, play “Loneliness for Love” by Lovelytheband…
“She creeps in at ungodly hours. Her love seems sweet but it tastes so sour. Delicate like a dying flower.
It felt so good so I’m wondering how, I could feel so low when you made me feel so high. I’ve been here before but this won’t be the last time.”
Breakups are never easy to deal with. Social media makes it even harder. I know I’m not the only one who has checked up on an ex…especially, one that was unfaithful or just broke your heart and said it wasn’t working out. I secretly hope they’ve gained 100 pounds, struggle with cystic acne, or had a bout with Chlamydia (it’s curable) because one more time for the people in the back: I’m petty.
Social media and dating apps make it a lot easier to fall prey to the lonely because misery loves company. You’re lonely. They’re lonely. You’re gonna have a bad time, but you’ll feel wanted. And that’s what is really important in that moment. You want to feel wanted. Point blank. The problem arises when you romanticize that convenience for something more and catch feelings. Ugh. Fucking feelings.
I’m guilty of that. I’ve done it many times. I did it with a coworker I hooked up with on and off for a year. We both did. I guess he thought he was tired of being a whore and wanted to try something. We tried it. As you can imagine, it came crashing down in flames when he cheated on me on the 4th of July. His reasoning? “You’re not enough of a bitch for me. You’re too nice.”
Absurd? Yes, that is the most absurd reason for hurting someone. And somehow, even that asshole is married…
“'Cause I keep mistaking loneliness for loveI'm tryna find myself inside someone. Anything at all not to feel alone. Anything at all just to feel whole. 'Cause I keep mistaking loneliness for love…”