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Ariana Grande said it best “I think retail therapy my new addiction”. Although, I don’t have her bands, I definitely engage in retail therapy as all women do when things aren’t going our way. It has increased during the COVID pandemic as I’ve taken more to online shopping than actually going to a brick and mortar mall. Also, there’s Klarna and Quadpay.
As I stated in the about section, I’m still reeling from my breakup at the beginning of the lockdowns in California. It’s definitely been a long heartbreak recovery, as this person was the first person I dared to love since my three year relationship ended in 2016. My relationship that ended in April, lasted ten months and we’ve been apart for six months. It feels like 76 months in COVID years. So of course, dating is not easy…especially online dating.
The aforementioned was the last guy I actually felt jazzed about. I have hung out with a few guys since then but none of them had that “Add to Cart” feel. Like today, I felt so much joy when I made an online purchase from Sephora. Sure, I miss testing products in the store because let’s be real, that’s the main reason we go there. I’d walk out of that store looking like a unicorn, smelling like a whore house from sampling perfume and I was damn happy. I couldn’t wait for my next date with Sephora.
I have not had that feeling with any guys that I’ve met from Tinder. Yes, I’ve had sex with some because we all have needs. But I’m not counting down the minutes until I see them again like I’m counting down the days until I receive my Rare Beauty by Selena Gomez cream blush. I’m not excited about them. Not excited to hear from them. It’s more like “Meh. I guess I’ll reply”. But my eyes light up when I see “Your package has shipped” on my phone.
Basically, what I’m trying to say is COVID has either made me realize I’m wasting my time with some guys or maybe I’ve gotten so used to being alone that I really don’t want to be bothered with people.
As of right now, I guess I’m still waiting for my nice human to come along who makes me feel like I want to add him to my cart and check out.